Friday night- been debating on what to make my first official #realpurple post.
I’ve been experimenting with all things life and entrepreneur. And it seems like once you’re in you’re in. Everything relates.
So for now- until I change my mind down the road, as is my perogative… I thought it might be fun to focus on a different aspect each time.
Today let’s talk about that whole business confidence thing. Because I know it is a thing but a lot of us don’t talk about or face it.
December was a tough month for me. And for the business.
I knew in November people were gearing up for the holidays and my December looked weak. But I figured we would be good- I’m working on new leads and new potential right? Right. But come what really happened is I didn’t have enough to cover final expenses and couldn’t pay myself. As it goes sometimes that is the life. And hard for me to admit out here and to the world. But that was my promise right? To be real and to be completely honest and I hope to not be completely alone in this.
I feel like a smart person would have been just fine and had reserves to call on in rough months. But. I had already used my reserves up.
so there I am after Christmas having an emotional breakdown when my mother in law is in town because I need to buy tickets to go see the new Star Wars movie and I don’t have the money.
… and there you have it the raw honest truth.
so luckily enough I have a husband who is understanding and supportive and also has a good job so financially we make it through together.
So after a bit of feeling sorry for myself and feeling like a failure I realized a few things.
I have always had a not-great relationship with money. more easy go than anything. And so now I am forced to make adjustments in how I am spending both personally and at work.
Deciding I don’t need to get my nails done, for example. Peeling off the remnants and truly feeling the pain and understand for real what it means to spend $35 each time to get them done.
I think there are many luxuries I came to enjoy without understanding or realizing the true value.
I’ve been making some big changes starting in December that are really changing me and my business (spoiler alert… the morning miracle) so I see things shifting here in January and am confident I’ll close one of my biggest months yet.
But I think there were things I needed to learn and really take to heart. And for my stubborn ass that meant getting real and feeling all of it.
So there you have it… #realpurple on the finances of being an entrepreneur.
Hope this relates to someone ’cause it’s tough to press share and put it out there.